He was a prostitute.
Shh, it is his little secret
A secret not to be proud of
He would never want his family to know
And neither his friends
But it's the truth
As ugly as it is
He was a prostitute.
The old man paid generously
To have his way with the young man's body
Because the young soul was blinded by the dollars
That would fill his pockets afterwards
He was a prostitute.
Then came a day
When the old man decided something
That he couldn't do it anymore
That it was wrong
Ugly and gross
And paid the young man one last time
Before they parted ways
I was the prostitute.
As I walked away from the old man's car that day
And back to school
The better half of me
The half that I should listen to more often
Felt relieved and thankful that it was over
The half that I should listen to more often
Felt relieved and thankful that it was over
I was a prostitute
But not anymore.
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I should have known better... I shouldn't have been blinded by the money. The reason why I haven't been posting as much is because I have been screwing up- and making a lot of mistakes lately.
Anyways, I never said that I was perfect. I look forward to getting back on track and taking better care of myself. Happy hollidays everyone.
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No stones to be cast nor any judgements from me. Just a warm embrace to let you know that all of that is in the past and you must look forward to the future. you take care, now.
@ ^travis
Thanks for that. I look forward to the future too.
We all do things shouldn't do — big or small. It's always great when we realize that we can and should do better and decide to quit doing something wrong — even if it wasn't entirely our decision at first. It's what some call repentance, and, as I say, it's a great thing.
Congratulations on making a good decision and moving in a good direction.
*hugs*
I'm glad that all is well, or as well as its possible to be. None of us are perfect...we can only try our best! Enjoy the season!!! - V
We miss ya.
@justy: aww.. *hugs*
Everybody have their own bad story to tell. As travis have said, no stome from me either bug tight hugs to let you feel i'm here amd i care...
Merry christmas and a happy new year!
JJRod'z
No regrets. Survive. Learn. And move on. So, great to have you back.
@ naturgesetz
Thanks, I love that word: repentance. It's been a while since I've heard it. I used to hear it more often when my dad would preach to me and my siblings about what's right and wrong growing up.
@ SpiritMountainGuy
It kind of feels like I haven't been doing my best but maybe I'm being too harsh on myself.
@ Anonymous
Miss you too LOL
@ Nate
*hugs* : )
@ JJ Roa Rodriguez
Thanks. I'm awesomely surprised by all the support haha.
@ Mitch Block
I will definately survive, learn, and move one. Seeing how strong I am as I push past any obstacles that hold me back makes me feel... alive : )
Recognizing when you need to move on is important. You should look back on bad experiences, and catalog them in such a way that if the temptation pops up again, they come screaming out of the cobwebs to remind you of the way things were. I don't think you're being too harsh on yourself, we've all done things we're not proud of - my list is a lot longer than I'd care to admit, but that's life, and you seem to have yours back on track.
Hope the holidays are good to you! Glad you're back!
Peace <3
Jay
You've made the right choice. I'm happy for you^^
I'm sorry that you've been having such a rough time lately. Never regret anything that happens in your life, mistake or not, because there's always something to be learned. I do not think any less of you/hold this against you, because you've already shown what a big heart and generous spirit you have.
Glad to see you're back!
And yes... survive, learn, and move on. This is from someone who's had the same experience. In a way, it has made me stronger, and I wouldn't change it at all.
Happy holidays to you and yours!
NO ONE is "perfect." We live, and we learn. Much Love and peace be with you... Have a merry and blessed Christmas. *hugs*
Everyone deserves a second chance.
Merry Christmas Justy :) be strong. This will pass..
@ Jay M.
"my list is a lot longer than I'd care to admit"
Thanks, I bet a lot of people say the same thing too.
@ DARKSOUL
Thanks. I'm happy that it's over too haha.
@ InItsGrip
When the old man first approached me, I thought "Why not? I can always stop if I want to and I won't be hurting anyone."
I was wrong about the "not hurting anyone" part
Both of us walked away feeling used. For him it was his money and for me if was my body. I actually felt bad for the old man afterwards.
@ Cup-o-Noodles
When someone makes a mistake, it comforts them to know that someone else has done it too. Thanks.
@ Michelle My Bell
much love : )
@ iamrei
Merry Christmas
We can learn a lot from our mistakes!
Happy holidays and may the new year bring peace of mind and a strong sense of purpose in your so young life!
Hugs
Jon
Is it crazy for me to say that I am glad you were a prostitute? I think life is all about lessons and I think you've learned this lesson.
I think you should blog about the mistakes...just a thought.
Making Mistake always made me realize to be more careful in doing things
but the good thing was waking up one morning realizing that i need to move on to the right direction ...
Great job.
God Bless
hey babe happened om ur site accidentally it v good
@ DeepBlue
I used to think that I was old... now I realize that when I'm 40 years old I'm gonna wish that I was 22 years old again. Cheers to being young everyone!
@ thegayte-keeper
LOL. No, I don't think you're crazy for thinking that. I think it's always nice to know that you're not the only one in the world who has made a mess of things.
@ Web Design
Amen to moving in the right direction
@ Anonymous
Thanks. I'm glad you think so : )
Welcome back. I enjoy reading about your life.
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