Saturday, October 29, 2011

A Caring Dad

During engineering class yesterday, I noticed a young boy - maybe around seven years old - sitting in the front row of the auditorium.  I wondered to myself:  Why is there a boy sitting there?

Then I realized that it must be my professor's son. 

Toward the end of the lecture, my professor told his son to stand up in front of all the students and help him with a teaching demonstration.  During the demonstration, my professor's face was painted with a goofy smile that displayed his immense happiness of having his little kid around. 

There was something magical about watching my professor acting fatherly in the classroom. 

I remember my first impression of him on the first day of school:  strict and too serious.  Over time, however, that impression of him broke down and a new impression of him developed.  He started to become more of a father-figure and more of someone I could look up to.  He even became handsome...

Oh gosh, I never thought I'd say that.

During the demonstration, I looked around at  the other students' faces and they too were smiling.  The mood of the classroom at this instant felt different.  It felt more friendly, more comfortable.  It exuded a feeling of being at home with loved ones.

It was a feeling that everyone in the world should experience.

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As I sit here typing this out on my laptop, I wonder to myself: Will I ever be a father?  If so, would I be a good one? 

I envy my professor not because I don't have that relationship with my dad but because I question if I'll be a good dad to my children someday...

How do children cope with having gay parents? 
With having no mom or no dad?
Will they fare well with other children teasing them for having gay parents? 
Or is it something that they'll be willing to lie about to keep it a secret?
Will they come to secretly despise having gay parents?
Will other people question the safety of a young boy in the hands of two gay men?

Although I'd love to be a dad someday, I don't want to have children if I'm not ready to handle all the challenges that gay parents face.  That would be a huge mess...

Because it's an uphill battle.



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Tuesday, October 18, 2011

An Outstanding Teacher

Seven years ago I was a sophomore in high school.  I was an awkward, shy, and quiet student (in some ways I still am) and very uncomfortable with the idea of other people finding out that I was gay. 

This is what happened seven years ago during my sophomore year in high school...



"I don't like gay guys.  All they care about is sex..."

As I sat in my U.S. history class - waiting for class to begin - I could overhear my teacher's part of the conversation between her and a fellow student.

"I wholeheartedly agree.  I like lesbians too.  At least they care about love and not just about the sex."

I was offended by the things she was saying but I sat there in silence and kept my feelings hidden.  I couldn't let anyone see that I was offended; that would be a huge signal that I was gay and I wasn't ready to come out of the closet.

I thought to myself that it would be nice to prove her wrong and show the world that gay guys don't just care about sex.


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This happened two days ago while I was in the living room with my older brother.


I sat comfortably in front of the television when a commercial came on. 
I've seen these commercials many times before; another local high school teacher was being acknowledged for being an outstanding teacher.

Lo and behold,
it was my old U.S. history teacher. 

"That's my old history teacher from high school," I told my older brother.  I didn't sound enthusiastic and my older brother noticed.

"Something wrong?  You don't like her?"

"Yeah... I don't like her..."

As I watched the commercial, I saw someone who believed that gay guys only care about sex. 




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Saturday, October 1, 2011

"The Island Guy" Art


January 8, 2008

Do you love me?
More than you could ever know.




"Nice Guys"
December 21, 2007

I drew this from a picture of the Wong Fu Productions' members: Phil, Wes, and Ted.
I was in full admiration of their friendship; it's something that anyone would want.




"The Sketch Of A Tree"
July 18, 2011

A little sketch I made one day... read about it here.




"What Makes A Man"
March 27, 2009

My friend drew this.
Read about it here.




"The Sketch Of Another Tree"
August 8, 2011

Read about this sketch here.




"M&M Graduation"
June 2007

Read about this drawing here.



Jordan Bites walking through the meadow
Colored pencil on paper
July 24, 2011


Read about this drawing here.
 
 
 
 
 
Cartoons I made
Pen
May 4, 2013
 
 
 
Updates coming in the future...