So here I am.
I've blogged a handful of times before and now I'm looking to settle down. This website looks awesome!
My goal: To become more comfortable with who I am.
There are a couple things that I feel insecure about, one of them being my sexuality. Admitting to myself that I'm gay has been a struggle I must admit.
I've blogged a handful of times before and now I'm looking to settle down. This website looks awesome!
My goal: To become more comfortable with who I am.
There are a couple things that I feel insecure about, one of them being my sexuality. Admitting to myself that I'm gay has been a struggle I must admit.
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Welcome to this part of blogspace, sir. :)
Awe thanks Mugen
My first comment :)
welcome!
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I'm thoroughly enjoying this site so far
Welcome :D
You're a brave young fellow.
I just feel sorry for your dad. No, he is not a bad person: probably a terrific man. Here, you are faced with a person who can't accept the reality that his son is different.
But give him time. That's what he needs. That's what I gave my father for practically all of my waking life. My Dad is a complete bigot and I understand how his world crumbles every time he realizes that his favorite son is gay. It took him a 33 years to tell me that he loves me no matter who or what I am.
I should be rejoicing right? No, I'm not. Because at that time, what he thinks of me no longer mattered. I just wish he told those things when I needed them. I still respect him; but I cannot make myself close to him. He is trying to "make up for the lost time" but I am not interested anymore. The damage has been done. I forgive, but I don't forget.
I am truly happy that despite your Dad's occasional "outburst", you still genuinely care for him. How I wish I have that kind of heart.
But I don't have any regrets. I cannot feign affection for my father in the same manner that I cannot fake attraction for girls. Some hearts take longer periods to recuperate and I belong to this group.
May you find your strength when you need it.
Nedz.
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